I thought that not talking with you is the most painful one, but then I realize, it is to be betrayed. Not by someone else but with your feelings. To tell you still can even if you really can’t. To still trying to work things out even if you really can’t. To act strong to let them see you’re not affected but all of the efforts exerted is worthless cause in the end, you’ve been betrayed by your feelings.. you did not win.