Beauty in the nature of living

Live, love, repeat.” –That’s what we need.

 Friday morning I stepped out of my room to head straight to our mini garden and take some shot for my instagram account for I am so longing to upload a new picture and then unexpectedly, I saw this gorgeous one. I don’t know what kind of insect is this but it looks like a big bugg so I call it buggchi, pronounced as bagki. It really looks so unique in my eyes due to its queenly color -a combination of silver and gold. At first, I thought I can’t take a good shot of it, for like some insects do fly right away before you focus your camera but luckily,  after 6 or 7 shots buggchi stay and acts like striking a pose -chining up in the camera like it was saying “go, take a picture of me, im ready.” In the end, as looking back to the present, I realize that beauty isn’t really just about defining it, but letting it to define itself. You just have to live and love for it’s the nature of living. 

-This is a throwback post from my first account. This is my very first blog post. (October 30, 2016)

blades and lies 

I was raised keeping myself away of the blades..

They told me its dangerous and so..

They told me everything I must know..


One thing they never tell..

Blades may be dangerous but it won’t leave me..

Its kinda cliche u know..

But do u know what’s more unfortunate?

They told me not to play blades bc it may hurt me…

But they’re the one who hurts me…

And put me near the blades..

Happiest: Is there?

Everytime I wake up, 

I think of me wearing a white gown.

Walking towards the altar..

slowly and slowly,  til I reach the very front.

I always wish of marying someone.. 

Someone who will accept me..

who will care and love me unconditionally..

I may be happy

but everytime I end the day..

I think again of me again.

I am wearing white

I am quietly sleeping..

They are slowly carrying me towards the altar..

Slowly and slowly..

I ask myself…

Is there still atleast one person who will cry?

When I am forever sleeping in a coffin?

If there is..

I may be the happiest..


Its been days already. Every day gets harder and harder. I can’t even stand out of my bed. Depression is drowning me.. I can’t escape nor scream… I have no one and no where… I want to die… I am so tired and weary.. I can’t do this anymore… 

Toothpaste for acne and blackheads?

Toothpaste is an effective agent in whitening our teeth and taking away cavities. Little we know, it also helps in clearing acne and blackheads. You don’t believe me? Then, try this steps.

1. Wash your face. Always wash your face, dear!

2. Tap to dry. Don’t harshly wipe your face. Tap it only with your clean towel to avoid irritations. 

3 Put on a little amount unto your fingers. Make sure that your fingers are clean. 

Take note: Whenever you apply toothpaste in your face, Don’t use toothpaste that has a stripe color and gel toothpaste because it has different mixture. Don’t use whitening toothpaste also because it has a strong agent that will only make your face dry. 

4. Tap it to the acne only. Don’t put it all over your face because it will make your skin dry too. Leave it for 8hrs or all night. But, if you have sensitive skin, rinse throughly after 10-15minutes only. 

Take note: Don’t use the toothpaste 4 times a week or greater. Apply it only atleast 2-3 times straight in a week  and you can already see the improvement and then after, let it heal itself. Don’t try to apply it again because it may darken and leave some spots on your face. I’m sure you don’t like that.😉


1. Wash your face and tap to dry. (Take note of the above.)

2. In a clean container, put toothpaste, a pinch of salt and drop of water. 

3. Mix it.

4. Apply it. Massage it. 

Take note:  the stinging feeling is normal.

5. Leave for 5-10minutes then massage again. 

6. Then rinse.

7. Apply ice cube to the area to close pores. 

After the application, you’ll see right away the improvement. It whitens already. Repeat 1-2times a week only.


Toothpaste really helps us in our acne and blackheads but take note that dermatologist don’t required it. So, precautions is a must! If you don’t want toothpaste, you can use tea tree oil, aloe vera, skinmate shark oil, castor oil and such. 

~Thankyou for reading!


Its already days when u left me

I once saw u when im on my way..

u r wearin the red shirt I gave

Im about to leave but u say hey!

I go near to u and fake a smile

I remember all the happy times

I see all the spark and hearts floating

But im all wrong bc its not me

U dont love me like it used to be

I forget that u got ur new babe

After what happened I drink solely

Broke and wasted emotionally

I wish that u werent my frailty

Bc its so hard and killin me

I wish u back, and love me again.

And  fill all the empty space within

But.. no! Nevermind. Just…

Wake me up when I can really see

See that theres no longer u and me

That i am no longer blind, really..

Blackheads no more with Toothpase 

What you need:



Empty container

Ice cube

What to do:

1. Put toothpaste in the empty container.

2. Add salt

3. Mixed them.

4. Add a lil water and continue mixing it.

5. When it’s done. Wash your face or the area where you want to apply.

6. Leave for 5-10 minutes. You can feel a stingling feeling. (Yes, it’s normal)

7. After 10 minutes, massage it slowly and in a circular motion. Do not massage it harshly.

8. After few minutes, rinse thoroughly. Apply ice cube to close pores.

9. Dry off and see the difference.



(The redness is normal.)

7Days Review: Is it really an acne-no-more with Castor Oil?

I’m pretty sure that most of you have probably knew this product. This product -Castor oil helps get rid of acne and helps in hair growth. (like thickening the eyelashes & brows) 

Last thursday november 9, 2017, since I’ve been having a break out, I decided to bought a small bottle of Castor Oil with a brandname “apollo” from watsons. It’s very afforadable for only 42.20 php you can already avail a 30mL bottle. 

Here it is..

Ready to take the challenge? 





o o p s before that, I take a “before-applying” photos first. For us to easily distinguish if there’s a progress or none.

Here are those..


Pimps everywhere. (These are both right side bc my left have none)

So yes, I put an arrows on each to point out lol. As you can see my acne have grown bad and alive. It hurts whenever it’s touched.

After washing my face at night and patted it to dry, I simply use my fingers to put it on the areas and since I’ve got excited, I’ve putted too much unintentionally. But, I have read some sites that castor oil moisturizes the skin and a good anti-bacterial, so, problem no more and I whip it all over my face. 


Of course, change is not the kind of “when u apply, u’ll get it right away” 

My pimples are still there of course but the others who are small are starting to fade.


I’ve noticed that my pimps are starting to dry. It’s healing.


They are dried already but nonetheless it bleed. I unintentionally had scratch it and the skin fell off that makes it bleed.


My skin is starting to clear my pimps. 


My pimples dried and those in my face are pimples marks only. At first, I was honestly become disappointed because the pimple marks darken.


Unfortunately, I dont have a good quality camera to use but when you see my face, it is starting to peel that those dark spots I dislike slowly change its skin a lighter and a better one.

In the 7 days of using, I really saw how it works. It may not clear off the pimples fully, I think that by using it continously, it will vanish those pimple marks completely.

All in all, I give this product 4 out of 5. It is thick in mixture and have a smell that will distinguish that it is an oil but is not bottersome. It’s not pricey and very affordable and as you can see, it really works!

 P.S. I know i’m ugly, u don’t have to say it.